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the need to lose

I have never been this high in my weight I always fluxed since I began being over weight.  Now I’m worried and I know I have to do something.  It’s been hard, and usually the motivation is lost soon so once again, I am forcing myself to try and do something about it.  Exercise for me is a big thing, it’s not just the eating but I’m not active, I’m lazy and would rather not do anything but be a sloth. 

Today though I went and did a workout at the gym, not the usually elliptical and some weights but an actual exercise class, I’m glad I did I know I’m feeling it but it is something I did enjoy even though I couldn’t do all of it.  I’m sure I will be able to do more of it at other times, if I keep going. So for the next 35 weeks I’m scheduled ( I can change as we go) wednesdays for this class,  I don’t need to be signed up for it but It’s on my calender for me to do and hope it is a commitment I can keep for myself.